Well, I don't really feel like saying anything but I think it's time to add to the log. I'm a bit tired and maybe a bit down.

Do you ever get the feeling that you've been lying to yourself for a long time? I feel like that sometimes. I assume that I'm not good at something so I might not attempt it for fear of being or feeling embarassed.

Lately I've been trying some new things and finding that I'm not as bad as I thought I'd be. Most of the things I'm talking about are sports related. My bowling game is getting better. I found I can hit better than I thought I could in the batting cages (albiet just the slow pitch soft ball). I tried to play golf a couple of times and the guys I was with had some encouraging things to say to me. Well, at least the first time I played they seemed somewhat impressed. The second time, however, I played horribly. The clubs I was using weren't as nice as those I used the first time I played, but that couldn't be the sole reason for my poor performance. Saturday I went out and hit some tennis balls around with some friends. There are some things I'm naturally good at. Tennis and golf aren't in that category. Maybe If I were to learn some of the basics I'd find that I really am generally adept at those sports. I'm not inclined to invest the time required to find out.

Maybe I'm just turning out to be more average than I ever imagined myself being.