heavy...

We plan on closing on my first house within the next two weeks. Besides that, I'm getting married next month. These last two days I've really been feeling the weight of new responsibilities. The financial commitments are substantial. I'm going to have to change the way I spend money. I've been kind of free with it, the last few years... not irresponsible, mind you, just intentionally not frugal. I have no idea how much getting the house into shape is going to cost... well, I have some idea, it's just the specifics I don't know.

I don't know how much it'll cost to have the tin roof cleaned and painted. I don't know how much having gutters installed will cost. I don't know how much the HVAC unit will cost to be serviced or how much fixing the duct work will be. And those are just the things I won't do myself. There's much more to do.

Tthat's just the house. There are some other things that need to be taken care of, and I'm glad to do them, but I'm just not sure of the best way to do it. I suppose I should do some research... or have Rebecca do it since she likes that kind of thing.

I know it'll all turn out okay. I see this as a temporary struggle. Things may be fine by December but right now, I know how tight it's going to be.