Yearning. Now there's a word.

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So hazy and ethereal the conversation in the night seemed. A few exchanges lost in time. I don't remember what was said, only that it was nice to be talking. The weariness was so heavy upon me that seconds after saying good-bye I was sound asleep. Could that be the perfect end to a day? Perhaps... but not so late :)

Lovely. Just when I'm finishing up installing software on the PC I'm putting together for my mom and dad the hard drive dies.

[That's a sarcastic lovely if you couldn't tell.]

My inner child can beat up your inner child.

It's more annoying not to talk to you than it is to talk to you. I can't say that about everyone.

If I were to wake up to find the last two months were just a dream I'd be sad and would feel cheated. To have been happy and hopeful for so long and find that it was a night's illusion would be a joke of the cruelest kind.

Of course, I'm not dreaming and things are good.

Perhaps I've already said too much. I am worried again I'm ahead of myself and saying things before I should. Once again, you're the responsible one. It shouldn't be long before I'll know if I've made a mistake or can fully unleash my tongue.

God, give her wisdom, restraint and discernment... and help her do what she needs to get done.

Mmmm... fortune cookies...
Or rather, misfortune cookies...

Online misfortune cookie:
http://www.fal.net/html/misfortu.html

Recipe for fortune cookies with many misfortune suggestions:
http://www.csicop.org/superstition/cookies/

A place you can buy (different flavored) misfortune cookies:
http://www.evilfortunecookies.com/

And one last thing. I had a friend who knew someone who bought a bag of fortune cookies at an 'everything's a dollar' store. They distributed them at a youth group gathering or something and had to quickly recall them. They didn't look closely enough at the bag and had brought home cookies with erotic fortunes. Yeah... that could be embarrassing.

After church this morning, I met some friends at Osaka. It's a Japanese Teriyaki Hibachi type place. There are actually a bunch of these places in town and some people are quite addicted to them. I'm not one of them, partially because I don't like the Yum Yum Sauce that so many seem to crave. Anyway, I have a friend who works there and I get free drinks and it's a nice place to go sometimes. They give out fortune cookies at the end of the meal. Yeah, I know, but the owners are Chinese.

The first fortune I got was neither a fortune nor was it accurate: Well, I am a little curious about ancient Chinese civilization. I guess that means I'm attracted to it in some ways. There are other things that I find much more interesting, though. If I really were attracted to it, I'd probably know a lot more about it than I do. :)

I jokingly complained to E (my Japanese friend who works there) and the next thing I know she's standing next to me with a big box full of fortune cookies. I picked a new one:Now that's much better. Not only is it a fortune but I'm pretty sure it's already proving true ;)

The Krigstein Archives
I spent a fair amount of the morning looking through the artwork of Bernard Krigstein. It makes me wonder if i'd have been an illustrator or comic artist had I been born before the advent of computer graphics. Maybe I would've been a photographer. I can imagine doing special effects or just film work except that I doubt I would've had the opportunity. I may have ended up outside of the arts altogether. There isn't too much point in this kind of speculation I suppose.

In looking at this man's illustrations and paintings, I'm aware of how stiff and flat most of my art is. Some of this is from the medium, the pen and pencil I usually use. His work, some of it anyway, feels more lively and more dramatic to me. Even his early work demonstrates more skill than I have I think. I should draw more and learn to paint.

It's amazing where tangential links take you :) Originally I was looking up an erroneous C3PO trading card that turned out to be a bit more.... umm.. well.. I'm not going to share it with you ;)

Also this morning, I tried using my new phone as a modem through the bluetooth connection. It didn't work so I'll need to look into it more. That'd let me dial up to my LU internet account from anywhere I have cell phone service and my lap top. cool... If I can get it to work.

I've had a fairly productive morning for not having left my bed yet. Well, maybe productive isn't the best word to use. ;)

4 hour phone calls... Yeah, that's why I need unlimited nights and weekends.

just a few gestures in sealed orangish yellow... You'll know what I mean soon enough. (I'm referring to a specific you in this case, not the universal you. You know who you are.)