Monday, June 14, 2004

...It's not like I don't like you. The fact is I do like you. That's why this is so awkward. To put it tritely (is that a word?) I'm torn. Logically speaking, there is an adequate number of reasons why you and I should consider dating. For one thing, I respect you. There are a lot of women that I can't say that about. Plus we have similar personalities and maybe even share compatible career ambitions. We have a lot in common, not the least of which is proximity. The problem is that we just don't have that spark that one would like in this situation. I take note of us when we meet or show up at the same place at the same time. I don't notice anything that says you were anxious to see me. The same is mostly true for me too. My pulse doesn't quicken at the sound of your voice. I wish it did. There are pros and cons to us dating but I don't think the cons are insurmountable. In fact, I can readily imagine us being happy together. The pressure to cause the shift from friends to inseparable pair need not be a great one. For now, though, the chemistry isn't there and there's no indication of it showing up any time soon. I've been thinking about this for a while now. If you've been thinking similarly about me, I've not noticed. The scary thing is that I'd like to date you, but there are just enough cons that when coupled with your apparent lack of interest in me discourage me from raising the subject with you. Actually, what scares me is the thought of us starting to date and then me meeting someone else that I'd rather go out with. I doubt that would happen, but that'd put me in a position to really hurt your feelings and I don't want to do that. I just wish I were a bit more attracted to you and I think the thing that'd push me over the edge would be to learn that you were attracted to me. I may still ask you out... soon. I've been thinking about this too long... But I don't want to force something to happen just because I get lonely sometimes. On the other hand, I think you'd make a great wife and mother. I'm not sure anyone else could be better.

Oh well, more prayer is in order I guess. And more eharmony searching as well.

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