My mother used to tell a joke. "What's worse than biting into an apple and finding a word? Biting into an apple and finding half a worm."
Yeah, tonight I found out how untasty that can be.
Blech.
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Intentions...
I intended you order fruit for you but my zip code prevented me from setting up an account with safeway. I didn't want to use your name and address in setting up an account because that seemed just plain wrong. Maybe I could've used my name and your address or a fake address. I even called the toll free number to see if I could order by phone, but they don't do that. oh well. It was then that I suggested it to you. You mentioned albertsons and I then tried them. Their website wasn't working right. It was giving me problems. Then you found some frozen fruit and I gave up.
I did have a plan to get you animal slippers for your birthday. When I went to place the order I noticed they were for little children. I'd probably get the size wrong anyway.
I'm still trying to surprise you but it's getting harder. I know you don't need/want more stuff... It's the thought that counts right?
I hope you're doing well and that sleep deprivation isn't effecting your driving safety :D
I intended you order fruit for you but my zip code prevented me from setting up an account with safeway. I didn't want to use your name and address in setting up an account because that seemed just plain wrong. Maybe I could've used my name and your address or a fake address. I even called the toll free number to see if I could order by phone, but they don't do that. oh well. It was then that I suggested it to you. You mentioned albertsons and I then tried them. Their website wasn't working right. It was giving me problems. Then you found some frozen fruit and I gave up.
I did have a plan to get you animal slippers for your birthday. When I went to place the order I noticed they were for little children. I'd probably get the size wrong anyway.
I'm still trying to surprise you but it's getting harder. I know you don't need/want more stuff... It's the thought that counts right?
I hope you're doing well and that sleep deprivation isn't effecting your driving safety :D
Intentions...
I intended you order fruit for you but my zip code prevented me from setting up an account with safeway. I didn't want to use your name and address in setting up an account because that seemed just plain wrong. Maybe I could've used my name and your address or a fake address. I even called the toll free number to see if I could order by phone, but they don't do that. oh well. It was then that I suggested it to you. You mentioned albertsons and I then tried them. Their website wasn't working right. It was giving me problems. Then you found some frozen fruit and I gave up.
I did have a plan to get you animal slippers for your birthday. When I went to place the order I noticed they were for little children. I'd probably get the size wrong anyway.
I'm still trying to surprize you but it's getting harder. I know you don't need/want more stuff... It's the thought that counts right?
I hope you're doing well and that sleep deprivation isn't effecting your driving safety :D
I intended you order fruit for you but my zip code prevented me from setting up an account with safeway. I didn't want to use your name and address in setting up an account because that seemed just plain wrong. Maybe I could've used my name and your address or a fake address. I even called the toll free number to see if I could order by phone, but they don't do that. oh well. It was then that I suggested it to you. You mentioned albertsons and I then tried them. Their website wasn't working right. It was giving me problems. Then you found some frozen fruit and I gave up.
I did have a plan to get you animal slippers for your birthday. When I went to place the order I noticed they were for little children. I'd probably get the size wrong anyway.
I'm still trying to surprize you but it's getting harder. I know you don't need/want more stuff... It's the thought that counts right?
I hope you're doing well and that sleep deprivation isn't effecting your driving safety :D
The sky was an odd mix this morning. To my left the whole sky seemed to be covered with a thin blanket of cloud cover with lower more defined clouds floating below. The sun was represented by a large hazy bright spot. It was a little surreal in that it looked like a normal partially cloudy sky but gray instead of blue. It was a duotone image. Over on the right, which I couldn't see as well as I sat in the driver's seat of the car, the sky was blue. It was more interesting on the cloudy side. I wish I had a decent camera and paused to take a snapshot. You'll just have to imagine it for yourself.
[sometimes it's a metaphor... sometimes it's a weather report.]
[sometimes it's a metaphor... sometimes it's a weather report.]
Monday, April 25, 2005
I spent part of the morning singing "whatsamatter blue bird?" a song I was making up as I sang it so I can't repeat it now. :)
The sky is full of clouds but there are large gaps between them and the sunshine pours through. You can see shadows of clouds on the blue ridge mountains and overall it's a beautiful scene except it's a bit hazy. It's perhaps the best combination for the sky. If it's all clouds then it's dark and depressing. If it's all blue with no clouds at all then it's boring and doesn't make for good photographs. Then of course there's that old country song that goes "where the sun always shines, there's a desert below." ultimately clouds, at least here in Virginia, are travelers. They pass by. Sometimes they move slowly and sometimes quickly.
On a more personal note, I may be pining a bit for a month or two ago. Has familiarity bred contempt? Well, no. Not contempt. Things are different now but that's not a bad thing. Things have to change. It's part of the growing process. Things are a little weird right now. I know how I hope they turn out. Ultimately, however, it's all in God's hands so there's not much point in worrying about it.
The sky is full of clouds but there are large gaps between them and the sunshine pours through. You can see shadows of clouds on the blue ridge mountains and overall it's a beautiful scene except it's a bit hazy. It's perhaps the best combination for the sky. If it's all clouds then it's dark and depressing. If it's all blue with no clouds at all then it's boring and doesn't make for good photographs. Then of course there's that old country song that goes "where the sun always shines, there's a desert below." ultimately clouds, at least here in Virginia, are travelers. They pass by. Sometimes they move slowly and sometimes quickly.
On a more personal note, I may be pining a bit for a month or two ago. Has familiarity bred contempt? Well, no. Not contempt. Things are different now but that's not a bad thing. Things have to change. It's part of the growing process. Things are a little weird right now. I know how I hope they turn out. Ultimately, however, it's all in God's hands so there's not much point in worrying about it.
Friday, April 22, 2005
Presence...
You're 2900 miles away.
I can't see you.
I can't hear you.
The only thing connecting us is an inactive IM window and your name in my buddy list.
Still, I feel like you're here with me and I'm there with you.
It's as if we were in the same place, simply not talking... maybe as if in separate rooms... maybe even silently in different parts of the same room out of each other's view.
You're 2900 miles away.
I can't see you.
I can't hear you.
The only thing connecting us is an inactive IM window and your name in my buddy list.
Still, I feel like you're here with me and I'm there with you.
It's as if we were in the same place, simply not talking... maybe as if in separate rooms... maybe even silently in different parts of the same room out of each other's view.
It's sad to say but I think I'm ebbing. Perhaps, I'm burning out.
Maybe 41.6 hours in <20 days is too much time to spend on the phone :D.
Still, I am looking forward to meeting. In three weeks we'll be together for real for the first time. Three weeks is enough for an ebb to reverse itself right? Even if not, things can still work out well. The last 2.5 months have been very good and I think there's more than just feelings involved in that. Most of the things that have me interested are still factors.
It's kind of funny how fickle feelings can be. It's kind of annoying as well.
I hope you have a great and productive day and that this little update about a probably temporary state doesn't darken your mood.
Maybe 41.6 hours in <20 days is too much time to spend on the phone :D.
Still, I am looking forward to meeting. In three weeks we'll be together for real for the first time. Three weeks is enough for an ebb to reverse itself right? Even if not, things can still work out well. The last 2.5 months have been very good and I think there's more than just feelings involved in that. Most of the things that have me interested are still factors.
It's kind of funny how fickle feelings can be. It's kind of annoying as well.
I hope you have a great and productive day and that this little update about a probably temporary state doesn't darken your mood.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
I went to sleep soon after talking with little miss angsty grrl [hehe]. I didn't sleep straight through. I know I woke up a few times this morning. One of those times I woke up from a dream I thought would be cool to remember but I knew I wouldn't remember it because I didn't want to write it down. If I tried writing it I probably wouldn't have been able to go back to sleep and I needed to catch up. Eventually I did wake up fully. I was definitely slacking this morning and didn't get up until I was nearly fully awake. I didn't shave. I half forgot/half decided not to bother, not necessarily in that order. Meh, I have no one to impress here. I did manage to clip my fingernails this morning. Dr. Falwell spoke in Convocation today. It was his first sermon (I think) since getting out of the hospital this last time. I knew he had stopped breathing that time but I didn't know his heart had stopped as well. I guess it's a miracle that he's still with us. His message was mainly about finding God's will for your life... finding your destiny. He talked about each one of us is unique. How we all have different physical and spiritual DNA and a place in God's plan. He finished the message by going over the general principles, God's general plan for all of us.
After convo we went to lunch at the Olive Garden. I just had the soup salad and breadsticks lunch. I just don't like to spend a lot on lunch. It was good and filling though.
The weather outside is very nice. I wish I didn't have to be in here now. Actually, I think I'll leave. 4:33 is close enough to 5:00 isn't it? ^_^.
After convo we went to lunch at the Olive Garden. I just had the soup salad and breadsticks lunch. I just don't like to spend a lot on lunch. It was good and filling though.
The weather outside is very nice. I wish I didn't have to be in here now. Actually, I think I'll leave. 4:33 is close enough to 5:00 isn't it? ^_^.
Monday, April 18, 2005
My mood...
is less than wonderful tonight. Perhaps it is due to a lack of rest, a lack of exercise, a lack of proper nutrition. Tonight is one of those nights in which I question my core beliefs. This time I can't blame it on the rain or the gloom. Perhaps, the physical is disrupting the spirit. Oh well. I'll call this mood melancholly and bear it for now.
is less than wonderful tonight. Perhaps it is due to a lack of rest, a lack of exercise, a lack of proper nutrition. Tonight is one of those nights in which I question my core beliefs. This time I can't blame it on the rain or the gloom. Perhaps, the physical is disrupting the spirit. Oh well. I'll call this mood melancholly and bear it for now.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
TWO MORE FOR TODAY
http://www.retrojunk.com/
Stuff from the 80's. Video clips of TV commercials and show opens, etc. I remember watching some of this stuff. Why didn't the cartoons all look like toy commercials to me back then? Why didn't I realize that some of it just wasn't worth watching? On the other hand, Silverhawks looks better animated than I remember it being... a rare assessment indeed. Of course, you can only see the open to the show, not the show itself.
Yet Another IQ Test:
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Visionary Philosopher. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others -- and at anticipating and predicting patterns.
That's odd. The last time I took this test I was Visual mathematician. I wonder which questions I got wrong. My guess would be the math ones... the word problems.
http://www.retrojunk.com/
Stuff from the 80's. Video clips of TV commercials and show opens, etc. I remember watching some of this stuff. Why didn't the cartoons all look like toy commercials to me back then? Why didn't I realize that some of it just wasn't worth watching? On the other hand, Silverhawks looks better animated than I remember it being... a rare assessment indeed. Of course, you can only see the open to the show, not the show itself.
Yet Another IQ Test:
The Classic IQ Test
Congratulations, Dana!
Your IQ score is 135
Your IQ score is 135
Your Intellectual Type is Visionary Philosopher. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others -- and at anticipating and predicting patterns.
That's odd. The last time I took this test I was Visual mathematician. I wonder which questions I got wrong. My guess would be the math ones... the word problems.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
I was a ghost this morning. Or rather, I had a dream in which I was a ghost.
It was interesting because I was discovering the limits and nuances of interacting with the living. Early on I had to come to the realization that I was dead, kind of like in the Sixth Sense. There were others around that I think I could interact with. I was trying to communicate with the living. I tried text messaging or email. I don't remember if I carried a dead cell phone with me or if I was using a living one. [That reminds me of the story of someone receiving an email from a love one that recently died. The email said something along the lines of "It's hotter down here than I expected" The person who sent it was alive and on vacation somewhere warm, he just happened to have the same name and mistyped the email address.] any way, I think you're cute. So there I was trying to communicate with the living. I don't remember if I was successful or not. I could see everything in the real world clearly as well as seeing 'dead people.'
For some reason the bulk of the dream took place in a high school (I think) that I've never attended. I remember classmates and I think I was still trying to do the normal going to school thing. Why would I go to classes if I didn't have to? Well, maybe that was before I knew I was dead . Maybe I was trying to do only what I knew to do, you know, as a coping mechanism. Maybe I was there just because it was a dream and they don't make sense.
At some point I started trying to appear to people. It took a lot of concentration to materialize. I did think about the ramifications of making an appearance. I believe there were others around me also trying to figure this out. I don't think I gave up trying even though I knew that if I was successful and did become visible to the living, they would most likely be frightened off, furthering my distance from them.
It all seemed original and fresh at the time but really it's stuff I picked up from the sixth sense and Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency
[I wonder if the dream was triggered by the slogan "I see bread people" which is one of the random slogans that appears under the logo at halfbakery.com I stumbled upon that site while looking for something. Something that wasn't there at all.]
It was interesting because I was discovering the limits and nuances of interacting with the living. Early on I had to come to the realization that I was dead, kind of like in the Sixth Sense. There were others around that I think I could interact with. I was trying to communicate with the living. I tried text messaging or email. I don't remember if I carried a dead cell phone with me or if I was using a living one. [That reminds me of the story of someone receiving an email from a love one that recently died. The email said something along the lines of "It's hotter down here than I expected" The person who sent it was alive and on vacation somewhere warm, he just happened to have the same name and mistyped the email address.] any way, I think you're cute. So there I was trying to communicate with the living. I don't remember if I was successful or not. I could see everything in the real world clearly as well as seeing 'dead people.'
For some reason the bulk of the dream took place in a high school (I think) that I've never attended. I remember classmates and I think I was still trying to do the normal going to school thing. Why would I go to classes if I didn't have to? Well, maybe that was before I knew I was dead . Maybe I was trying to do only what I knew to do, you know, as a coping mechanism. Maybe I was there just because it was a dream and they don't make sense.
At some point I started trying to appear to people. It took a lot of concentration to materialize. I did think about the ramifications of making an appearance. I believe there were others around me also trying to figure this out. I don't think I gave up trying even though I knew that if I was successful and did become visible to the living, they would most likely be frightened off, furthering my distance from them.
It all seemed original and fresh at the time but really it's stuff I picked up from the sixth sense and Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency
[I wonder if the dream was triggered by the slogan "I see bread people" which is one of the random slogans that appears under the logo at halfbakery.com I stumbled upon that site while looking for something. Something that wasn't there at all.]
Monday, April 11, 2005
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Intentionally bad, generic poem 001
Girl, i got it bad for you
i can't do anything
without thinking about you
Girl, when i see you i feel
all crazy deep inside
you make me want to squeel
I'd cross the country just to see your smile
I'd swim the ocean just to dry your eyes
I'd kill a gator just to save your life
If I lost you, girl, I think I would die
Girl, when I look in your eyes
I feel my heart melting
like the snow on the mountain
I promise I will be true
I will be good to you
Girl you know that I like you
Girl, i got it bad for you
i can't do anything
without thinking about you
Girl, when i see you i feel
all crazy deep inside
you make me want to squeel
I'd cross the country just to see your smile
I'd swim the ocean just to dry your eyes
I'd kill a gator just to save your life
If I lost you, girl, I think I would die
Girl, when I look in your eyes
I feel my heart melting
like the snow on the mountain
I promise I will be true
I will be good to you
Girl you know that I like you
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Yearning. Now there's a word.
So hazy and ethereal the conversation in the night seemed. A few exchanges lost in time. I don't remember what was said, only that it was nice to be talking. The weariness was so heavy upon me that seconds after saying good-bye I was sound asleep. Could that be the perfect end to a day? Perhaps... but not so late :)
So hazy and ethereal the conversation in the night seemed. A few exchanges lost in time. I don't remember what was said, only that it was nice to be talking. The weariness was so heavy upon me that seconds after saying good-bye I was sound asleep. Could that be the perfect end to a day? Perhaps... but not so late :)
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Monday, April 04, 2005
Perhaps I've already said too much. I am worried again I'm ahead of myself and saying things before I should. Once again, you're the responsible one. It shouldn't be long before I'll know if I've made a mistake or can fully unleash my tongue.
God, give her wisdom, restraint and discernment... and help her do what she needs to get done.
God, give her wisdom, restraint and discernment... and help her do what she needs to get done.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Mmmm... fortune cookies...
Or rather, misfortune cookies...
Online misfortune cookie:
http://www.fal.net/html/misfortu.html
Recipe for fortune cookies with many misfortune suggestions:
http://www.csicop.org/superstition/cookies/
A place you can buy (different flavored) misfortune cookies:
http://www.evilfortunecookies.com/
And one last thing. I had a friend who knew someone who bought a bag of fortune cookies at an 'everything's a dollar' store. They distributed them at a youth group gathering or something and had to quickly recall them. They didn't look closely enough at the bag and had brought home cookies with erotic fortunes. Yeah... that could be embarrassing.
Or rather, misfortune cookies...
Online misfortune cookie:
http://www.fal.net/html/misfortu.html
Recipe for fortune cookies with many misfortune suggestions:
http://www.csicop.org/superstition/cookies/
A place you can buy (different flavored) misfortune cookies:
http://www.evilfortunecookies.com/
And one last thing. I had a friend who knew someone who bought a bag of fortune cookies at an 'everything's a dollar' store. They distributed them at a youth group gathering or something and had to quickly recall them. They didn't look closely enough at the bag and had brought home cookies with erotic fortunes. Yeah... that could be embarrassing.
After church this morning, I met some friends at Osaka. It's a Japanese Teriyaki Hibachi type place. There are actually a bunch of these places in town and some people are quite addicted to them. I'm not one of them, partially because I don't like the Yum Yum Sauce that so many seem to crave. Anyway, I have a friend who works there and I get free drinks and it's a nice place to go sometimes. They give out fortune cookies at the end of the meal. Yeah, I know, but the owners are Chinese.
The first fortune I got was neither a fortune nor was it accurate: 
Well, I am a little curious about ancient Chinese civilization. I guess that means I'm attracted to it in some ways. There are other things that I find much more interesting, though. If I really were attracted to it, I'd probably know a lot more about it than I do. :)
I jokingly complained to E (my Japanese friend who works there) and the next thing I know she's standing next to me with a big box full of fortune cookies. I picked a new one:
The first fortune I got was neither a fortune nor was it accurate:
I jokingly complained to E (my Japanese friend who works there) and the next thing I know she's standing next to me with a big box full of fortune cookies. I picked a new one:
Saturday, April 02, 2005
The Krigstein Archives
I spent a fair amount of the morning looking through the artwork of Bernard Krigstein. It makes me wonder if i'd have been an illustrator or comic artist had I been born before the advent of computer graphics. Maybe I would've been a photographer. I can imagine doing special effects or just film work except that I doubt I would've had the opportunity. I may have ended up outside of the arts altogether. There isn't too much point in this kind of speculation I suppose.
In looking at this man's illustrations and paintings, I'm aware of how stiff and flat most of my art is. Some of this is from the medium, the pen and pencil I usually use. His work, some of it anyway, feels more lively and more dramatic to me. Even his early work demonstrates more skill than I have I think. I should draw more and learn to paint.
It's amazing where tangential links take you :) Originally I was looking up an erroneous C3PO trading card that turned out to be a bit more.... umm.. well.. I'm not going to share it with you ;)
Also this morning, I tried using my new phone as a modem through the bluetooth connection. It didn't work so I'll need to look into it more. That'd let me dial up to my LU internet account from anywhere I have cell phone service and my lap top. cool... If I can get it to work.
I've had a fairly productive morning for not having left my bed yet. Well, maybe productive isn't the best word to use. ;)
I spent a fair amount of the morning looking through the artwork of Bernard Krigstein. It makes me wonder if i'd have been an illustrator or comic artist had I been born before the advent of computer graphics. Maybe I would've been a photographer. I can imagine doing special effects or just film work except that I doubt I would've had the opportunity. I may have ended up outside of the arts altogether. There isn't too much point in this kind of speculation I suppose.
In looking at this man's illustrations and paintings, I'm aware of how stiff and flat most of my art is. Some of this is from the medium, the pen and pencil I usually use. His work, some of it anyway, feels more lively and more dramatic to me. Even his early work demonstrates more skill than I have I think. I should draw more and learn to paint.
It's amazing where tangential links take you :) Originally I was looking up an erroneous C3PO trading card that turned out to be a bit more.... umm.. well.. I'm not going to share it with you ;)
Also this morning, I tried using my new phone as a modem through the bluetooth connection. It didn't work so I'll need to look into it more. That'd let me dial up to my LU internet account from anywhere I have cell phone service and my lap top. cool... If I can get it to work.
I've had a fairly productive morning for not having left my bed yet. Well, maybe productive isn't the best word to use. ;)
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